I Be Ready Soon

20190420_162216I’m back.  I suffered  3 strokes and have a stent in the right side of my neck.  I will write things down as Kesely and I recollect them.  It started at the beginning of Dec 2017.  I had a vision during sleep paralysis, the only time that happens.  The way to describe it is to think of my house being protected by bugs that formed a concrete barrier.  I could hear a voice says “This is St. Micheal the Archangel.  Let me in.”  Then he started to punch the wall from the outside.  5 times he banged on the wall,  then I awoke from sleep paralysis.

I had to calm down.  Then I got my phone and looked up what the Catholics had done at St. Joseph’s Old Cathedral downtown by the bombing site. They had a priest that did a blessing on the church.  My feeling is that we were attacked by a group of priests concentrating on me. Kelsey could feel to be best described as a big snake move over us with the feeling of safety and that lasted about 30 minutes.  I then the next day came down with an upper respiratory infection, ear infection, and pink eye.  I  kept doing family things as normal as possible but then on December 27th about midnight I got lightheaded and had a migraine and went to sleep.

On the 28th I woke up not recognizing where I was and not able to understand the implications of the bed and the nightstand.  I immediately fell out of the bed and hit the floor. I used my left arm and felt around and realized my head was in between the bed and the nightstand.  I called Kelsey’s name and hoped she would be here.  Upon Kelsey showing up I guess she had called 9-1-1.  I had been in and out of consciousness.  I only remember parts of being put in the firemen’s sling to go outside then to the ambulance.  I woke up for a short time on NW Expressway and Portland cause they woke me up and asked me questions.  I couldn’t respond and I just fell back asleep.  20171230_062443_Burst01

It’s from Kelsey. I was staying in the ICU with him and on the3rd night I was finally dozing off and I woke up and took this picture.  I didn’t understand until I looked at the image on the tv.  It was like the upper half of Ahriman and his wings were in the bed where Adam was.  That morning for the nurses he answered almost all of the questions they asked him and was responsive enough they said he had a nice voice.  This was when he started coming around and remembering things the next day, on Sunday evening, he woke up and a harry potter marathon was on and he motioned to change channels himself.  He found Spongebob and that was the first time he grinned.  The right half of his face was still non-responsive and it was a half grin but it was the best thing. Then we found Austin Powers Goldmember and he was laughing the best he could and I saw him tear up and I asked him if he was happy cause he remembered it and he nodded. Later we found the last 30 minutes of Adam Sandler’s Big Daddy and when it was over he cried and said he wanted to sit up and get the nurse.  So she was very happy with Adam’s clarity and will to get better and she moved the bed to a sitting up position but he could only handle about 5 minutes before he had to lay down. That was day number 4.

The surgery was that Tuesday.  Herbad Jared came up again and helped with Adam’s transition to the surgery, which they had to keep him awake.  That was the hardest part of all the different leaving the rooms for tests and stuff. But the procedure was successful and the Dr herself showed us pics from her phone about that before and after. There was only 1 percent blood flow in the right side of his neck, so in the E.R. on the morning of the 28th, they put a balloon in his neck and the blood flow got up to 30 percent.  After the balloon was deflated and removed and the metal stent set up the blood flow got to be about 65 percent.  To this day the tests and scans prove it still works and as proud of a mother I am it was almost better to hear the blood flow in that side of his neck for the first time as it was to hear all the girl’s heartbeats for the first time.  It has only kept getting better, more movement and feeling able to be controlled by conscious thought, not subconscious movements.


Old Zoroastrian Monsters Khrastar



While other folks are talking about Fravashis (holy guardian angels) because they are under funded by Thelema, they’ve over looked Old Zoroastrianism.  In fact, their studies are merely surface and are plugged into opposing magical systems that have nothing to do with Zoroastrianism.  Let’s examine a fine example of this.  The creatures or monsters that predate druj are known as Khrafstar.  Per the Old Avesta (pre Zend Avesta) the concept of druj had its roots in these out of time or spiritual mad monsters that plagued the Earth before mankind.  Supposedly, these monsters could be tamed by a magician, then used to do their bidding.  This is where the concept of Djinn and the Lesser Key of Solomon come from.  Thus, the current debate is, was King Yima and Solomon the same figure?


Theses monsters, Khrafstars, are mad from the influence of death aka Ahriman.  Once these animals consumed the dead or dead matter (Ahrimani matter) they became infected with the Devil’s maddness.  This weakened these creatures to succume to disease easily.  This is apart of how Zariz became a counter-created Pairaka.  These animals were seen to be between both the Invisible Spirit and Material Worlds.  The infected maddness was a sign or actually brought death, plague, and poison.

As Middle Zoroastiran evolved, so did the actions of the Ahuras and Daevas.  The major switch that occures is the Spiritual becomes more of a war over influence of consciousness.  That both God and the Devil interiorly and exteriorly influence the consciousness of each individual, thus requiring constant monitoring of thoughts, speech, and action.  The Khrafstar gave way to becoming Druj or noxious creatures of the Earth that are under the influnce of Ahriman.  The concept of Druj also expanded into sexual influence lot like a incuccubi or succubus.  The Book of Proper and Impromper makes this down grade concrete in the religion.


Do these monsters, these khrafstars still have their evil influence?  Of course they do, Christianity made sure to bring these animal forward with them, as animals in witchcraft and omens.  I know you’ll recognize these guys and their connection to witchcraft.  Middle Zoroastrianism was quite a great tool to write the Malleus Maleficarum.  Check out Proper/Improper and make your own decision.



Flies/Maggots: house, carrion, fruit, disease spreading larva, mosquitoes, locust, lice and fleas.  House flies feed on feces, open sores, sputum, and moist decaying matter (spoiled foods, eggs, and fruit.)  These are symbols of death, disease, pestilence, and corruption.

Ants, termites; meaning carnage, death, and mortis.  Omens of impending evil.

Worms, gnats, cockroaches, caterpillars, bugs were infestations of death or impending death.

Serpents (mortha) are murder, evil, deceit, and choas at the very essence of evil.  Other reptiles are grouped here as well: snakes, crocodiles, alligators, lizards, worm lizards, turtles, and tortoises.

Amphibians, toads, frogs, newts, and salamanders are symbols of heresy, forgery, and unclean spirit.

Rats, mice, and othe infestation causing rodents, foxes and coyotes, are symbols of disease, avarice, greed, and defamed; destructive intelligence as well.

What does that mean to the Wicked Yatus?  It should give some idea of what was considered evil and spiritual.  You see most of these as omens even today, and most are even considered witches’ familiars.  If the evolution is for the Invisible to influence our minds, how is this knowledge worth anything to us?  Simple, they have now become symbols in our minds that speak directly to the subconscious.  You see this in the Hindu God illistrations, animals being used as symbols.

The Daeva too can be seen with certain symbols during meditation.  Its taking in these mental visions into spiritual selves and leaving impressions on our Jiva (spirit) that furthers us toward becoming a living embodiment of the Devil.  The purpose here is to seek Moksa through corruption of our minds, consciousness, and spirit.  Their specific meditative practices to attain this goal, but that is for another time…